Fear

It is so hard for me to be vulnerable or open with just anybody. For some reason, I have always been like this. I hate sharing things with my parents or siblings, and for the most part, I'm only able to open up with a couple of friends. I am not sure why this is. It's not like I have been hurt before in a major way. I mean I have had my share of hurts from friends, family members, and ex-boyfriends, but not enough of a deep hurt that should shut me off completely. I wonder though if by me refraining from being vulnerable with people I am trying to keep myself from being hurt. And in my attempt to keep myself from being hurt, am I missing out on opportunities that could lead to happiness instead of hurt? Am I playing it safe so that I can stay whole? If I went against what my normal tendencies are, could that hurt that I think I will find be substituted out for healing?